Choices, Problems, Lessons

"Atas dasar apa, sih, statement-statement yang ada di pikiran kamu itu?"

3:27 a.m.

Aku kira cuma seorang pengangguran yang tega bangunin orang di pagi buta kayak gini, saat ternyata ponsel kesayanganku berdendang nyaring dan terus menggeliat-geliat mengerikan di pinggir tempat tidur, redup-terang redup-terang dia menyala-nyala tanpa saingan di kamarku yang dibuat gelap tanpa lampu tidur. Lama. Lalu sunyi. Haha, aku tertawa dalam hati, mungkin si penelfon itu berpikir aku akan mudah dijahilin. Sialnya saat pikiran untuk tidur lagi datang, ponsel sialan itu kembali berdenyit keras, eh, yang sialan kan yang nelfon! Kembalilah ringtone Maroon5 - Misery itu berkonser ria di sunyinya malam, mungkin pagi, bukan malam lagi. Emosiku tersulut seketika, aku pun berusaha meraihnya dengan hanya kesadaran yang 25,786%.

Beginilah hexogenic, hexa extra organic of inteligent class, setiap hari akan ada spectrum dan gradient warna baru yang menorehnya. Seperti hari Jum'at lalu (March 5^th, 2011), hari terakhir sekolah sebelum Ujian Sekolah (US) Senin depan, emang sih andai kata gak ada US pasti minggu ini akan lebih perfect dengan weekend yang lebih panjang alias long weekend, hihi. Tadinya hari itu gue gak akan sekolah, udah gak ada mood-moodnya apalagi kalo inget musti bersih-bersihin kelas, huah, males. Tapi apa mau dikata, toh ada LKS yang masih sisa dan belum dilempar ke meja guru!

"Lo tahu gak, Gas? Gue akan melakukan apa pun untuk membuat bidadari gue tetap tersenyum. Berapa pun uang yang harus gue keluarkan, sebesar apa pun pengorbanan yang diminta untuk mewujudkannya, akan gue lakukan!" kata Nathan saat pandangannya tak sengaja bersiborok dengan Selma (bidadarinya) yang cepat-cepat membuang muka.

I don't expect you to believe the post I'm about to write.. But in order to die peacefully, it must be telling, haha (¬_¬") (~‾▿‾)~

Adapted to our secrets burned-hearts and a plot series of event in which the main characters of us attempts to solve the problem...

You've ever said, "I know you so well" to me. You should be able to more understand what's happened between us. I can't stopping my regret until the time you say forgive. Whether you still hurt?

I woke up in the morning with beautiful sun shines, took a seconds then I remembered what the date today... I was doing a big wrong thing to you, as you know, it make me felt regret so deep.
I burried my memory about us in my room, seeing our 'pink photos', listen to your voice messages and drag some gift closer. Although it all make my reget that becoming fade, get back!
Before the day so long, I never heard you saying goodbye, I never see you cry, I never think to leave, I never think you'll be like now. Only at that day, you were changing to be an unknown one...

Let flash back, this's my version about our true story of the date, keep relax and mature, please!

That day, a cruel Monday, I was in a very bad temper and it's cause your changed. For one reason I neve know, you say you don't need, you didn't call me for the time so long, you won't hear my name, and you let me with a millions question words in my mind. You, honey, you just caught me in a nothing-meaning of our relationship that day...
What the bitch ever! Everything you try to talk as your fvcking reason is being nonsense in my ear, my heart burned, it becomes go down, despite. I think your changed isn't a good way to express your worry and horrible about.
Maybe, you will never know, the month before our first anniversary, the day in the beginning of that, my heart has successfully given for you, all parts...
But you BREAK IT OFF! You DESTROY IT! You hit, you bite, and you turn my love off...
Hopefully when I write, I want to describe what my mind has very clearly. When finished reading or just seeing this, you should be able to imagine all, to more understand my mind as you see in yours..